Tuesday, April 10

Caged

I hate it
I hope it is only a phase
This is something i must beat
I wonder if i am strong enough to win
I want to be free
CAGED

I hate it
I hope it is only a phase
It is killing me slowly
I need a quick escape
It must not be delayed
I need space
Space to run and find my hidin place
CAGED

I hate this
I hope this is only a phase
This fence of steel bars
holding me down so hard
I can see the other side
I want to be on the other side
I need to be on the other side
It is true that the grass is not always greener
But not in this case it is different
Dont ask me why
Because i cannot say
I have the keys here in my cell
I can set myself free
But I will not

I can reach for the keys but I dare not
This place is not strange
I've seen it before
Many times over
I did not create it
I found it there
It ties me down like vipers tangled at my feet

I yell but hear no sound
I run but move not an inch
I am a prisoner in my own head
CAGED

Monday, April 9

You Are Home

The sun smiled at me,
I swear it did,
Felt like a dream.

Had to look again,
Just to be sure.

It still had that grin on.

I wanted a picture to keep,
But how unsure I was;
I could have been dreaming.

I got home feeling airy,
Butterflies in my tummy,
My steps more graceful,
My head up in the clouds.

Something else happened;
Later that night,
The most graceful moon
Whispered to me.

She sang me a song
Of the place I belong
You are home
You are home
Long lost child.


Monday, April 2

Hearing a Story


It makes me sad hearing a story...hearing a story from a sister in kind...
A story of despair...one that tells of her times of pain, one that tells of her journey through a life that we all must live...
Hearing her story pricks like a million needles thrown spontaneously...her story makes me realise that she went through all of it so I wouldn't have to...
There is always a story to learn from...could be yours or someone else's...

Sunday, April 1

Love So Real

This is something I wrote over a year ago. Hope you like it.


When I left home and was lost, Tricia found me. She held me so tight, she kept me so close. I hated her for she had so much love. Once, I said to her face "I hate you with all my heart". I had stabbed her with my tongue, but she did not mind. Tricia got married, time passed and I did not, I was so mad. While she was away, I burned down her house. I knew that she cried, I knew she was hurt, but she did not mind. Time passed, and I felt alone, I got mad so I drowned her child. I knew that she cried, I knew she was hurt but she did not mind. I got so miserable, I drank poison and died. In my goodbye note, I told her I hated her for she had all I wanted. I had stabbed her with my pen, or so I had thought. I did not care that she was hurt, I did not know that she cared till the day that she read her speech over my grave. She said about me "..she was such a beautiful soul, and I loved her so...". Then I realised all that I had lost. To see her again is my only wish, though there is no price I can pay to undo all the pain.

A Brief Analogy of Life

Scenario A – an examination which disallows cheating, you either know the answers or you don’t, the invigilators are watching closely to find any opportunity to pounce on you and the examiners score you with no mercy, penalizing you for your mistakes where necessary. Scenario B - an examination which allows you learn during the process, interact with others and borrow their wisdom, correct your mistakes, and warns you when you are about to make a mistake. The examiner watches you through the process so he decides how to reward or punish you accordingly after your papers come in. the life of this world is like the second scenario. Allah (God) puts us in this world to test us; He watches our every step, giving us opportunities to pass His test with every breath that we draw.

Saturday, March 31

JAMB Withholds 27, 266 Results

As I read this piece from The Guardian's online newspaper, my mind went back to last year when I wrote my UTME. It was horrible; my centre was so bad I thought my result would be cancelled. We were asked to pay a substantial amount(don't remember how much exactly) for the seats we sat on by the centre's proprietor. The penalty for not paying - your result will be lost. It was a threat; eventually I had to pay. Now they're saying there were no miracle centres this year - what a joke!

"THE results of about 27, 266 candidates who sat for this year’s Unified Tertiary Matriculation Examination (UTME) last Saturday would not be released due to their alleged involvement in large-scale examination malpractices, which the Joint Admissions and Matriculation Board (JAMB) said it has detected.

One of the tricks is the embedding of prohibited external materials into their persons, to enable them bring such inside the examinations halls.

An example was two mobile handsets embedded in sandals in two separate locations in the country.
Similarly, at least 24 other mobile phones were confiscated from candidates from across the country, contrary to the guidelines released by the board

Announcing the results of the examination in Abuja yesterday, the Registrar/CEO of JAMB, Prof. Adedibu Ojerinde, said the new trend in the examination malpractice showed that candidates were determined to beat the system, but warned that the board would continue to devise strategies to beat such tricks on the part of the candidates.

He said the affected candidates have since been handed over to law enforcement agencies for prosecution even as he confirmed that unlike in the past, there had not been miracle centres this year. He attributed the development to the fact that the candidates were given the freedom to select where they wanted to sit for the examinations.

A total of 1, 503,931 applied for the 2012 examinations, while 1,384,644 candidates were confirmed to have results.

Details of the analysis of the applications by gender shows that 55.78 percent are males while 44.22 percent are females.

This translates to 883,082 males and 660,522 females.

336,330 candidates scored 1-169; 374,920 scored 170-199; 601,151 scored 200-249; 71, 339 scored 250-269; 901 scored between 270 and 299. Only three candidates scored between 300 and above.

Only 5,161 candidates recorded invalid results for the 2012 UTME as against 28,069 recorded last year and 96,451 in 2010.

Ojerinde attributed the drastic reduction in the number of invalid results to the increased enlightenment of candidates, and expressed the hope that with time, incidents of incomplete results would be eliminated.

About 141 virtually impaired candidates sat for the examination for the 2012 down from 200 in 2011. Also, a total of 181 prisoners, mainly from Ikoyi and Kaduna prisons sat for this year’s edition, while a total of 49 albinos registered and sat for the examinations.

Imo State has the highest registered candidates for the examination with 123,865 candidates or 8.24 percent followed by Delta with 88,876 or 5.91 percent; Anambra is third with 84,204 or 5.60 percent; Osun follows with 73,935 0r 4.92 percent; Oyo with 71,272 or 4.74 percent and Ogun follows with 71,173 or 4.73 percent.

Conversely, Jigawa tops the list of states in the Northwest with intakes with 11,529 or 0.77 percent; Kebbi recorded 7,364 or 0.59 percent; Yobe with 6,389 or 0.42 percent; Zamfara followed with 5,713 or 0.38 percent; Sokoto  5,664 or 0.38 percent while FCT comes last with 3,380 or 0.22 percent.

On examination malpractices, the JAMB boss confirmed reported incidents of fraud, noting that it was the desire of JAMB to ensure the integrity and sanctity of its examinations, saying its officials who were found to have hands in the fraud would not be spared.

He stated: “During the 2012 UTME, we had some disturbing news of extortion of innocent candidates by greedy proprietors, supervisors and invigilators.

“But we assure the public that all these people would be brought to book accordingly, just as I make bold to say that JAMB will not spare any culpable persons.

“We also know that those engaged in exam malpractices will stop at nothing to achieve their aims.

“For instance, in 2012, some discoveries and new tricks were on display by the crooks, where we discovered candidates embedding their mobile handset phones in sandals. This was discovered during our routine scanner checks after the candidates passed through the biometric verification machines.” Ojerinde added: “ A Cursory look at some of their antics will show negative ingenuity on parade, but we say that no matter how smart they think they are, they would be caught and flushed.”

Investigations conducted across all the accredited JAMB examination centers in Lagos State revealed that many schools, through their workers, turned the exercise into money-spinning ventures.

Before the students were allowed entry into their various examination premises, the UTME officials stressed the need to discard any material/luggage, other than those relevant for the examination.

Security officials, led by the officers of the Nigerian Security and Civil Defence Corps (NSCDS), enforced this instruction, making the students seek the best places to hide their valuables.

Some persons promptly began demanding money to keep bags in a “warehouse”.

Some security personnel who caught candidates with handsets seized same but released them on payment of up to N1,000 each. And they made fortunes.

There were also reported instances of supervisors accepting fees to enable students carry in handsets and even bring in already solved answer sheets.

Author of this article: From Mohammed Abubakar, Abuja; Bankole Shakirudeen Adeshina and Laolu Adeyemi, Lagos."